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June 22nd / Text || Super late || Super locked

[bigbadrose]

I need to talk to you ASAP.

I'd rather in person, but that's sort of the point, that I can't.

The Doctor with the collar wants me to keep him company through the nightmares every other night. At minimum!

He also wants his relationship with me to be back before I told him I loved him.

I don't think I can do that. Either of them, but definitely not both.

I slept with the oldest Doctor. Not just fell asleep in his office when the youngest Doctor went back, because he missed Martha, but I mean I shagged the oldest after Fluffy came back from dying too.

I know I'm a monster for being jealous of her.
I know running away isn't enough, and he won't let me go. And that he thinks he has to bring me back.

I trust you.

But I hurt him so badly he forgot months of me on purpose(? At least as a self defense mechanism??) how can I possibly not hurt him if I have to be around?

I know you forgave him for leaving you, but I haven't. And won't. I didn't forgive his oldest either, but that's another story.

I cannot sleep.

Hurting him hurts me.

I want to run away. I want to protect you, and make up for all the times I wish I had. I love Martha too. I know removing me from the TARDIS won't fix anything, and I guess with him like this, it would just get worse.

What do I do? Is there a right answer? I don't think there are any wrong answers though. At least everyone loves each other so much, we're trying with our all, yeah? That's nice. I am proud of us :)

I was already a total brat and other b-words to Martha though :( She forgave me, but I haven't forgiven myself. How much worse will I get if I don't start sticking to lines now?

Also I am weak. Stupid puppy eyes and I forget my point.

Send help.
Love,
Your Rose